I've been enjoying a month with Mahler, watching his symphonies in order during the time my heart has kept me down. Granted, I've not been able to make it all the way through any of his symphonies in one sitting because I've had to stop and rest, but I've been enjoying myself immensely all the same. Because of the many camera angles catching the musicians playing, it is almost like having free music lessons, and because it is the same orchestra playing them, after awhile you get to recognize people and it becomes exciting to see them again- almost like greeting old friends. On top of that, the music itself has been filling my mind and soul with expansive thoughts and feelings, which has been a particular blessing.
Earlier this week I started bleeding internally again. It's nothing I haven't dealt with before- only the location of the bleeding and its initial severity is different. And like before, I received a call first thing this morning from the doctor's office that the initial test results mean that I need to be tested for tumors and cancer. Difficult? Yes. More especially because of what it is doing to those who love me. I hate dragging them through this again. I don't understand the reasons for it, but I do know that like last time, I'm receiving hope and help to keep me calm and get me through it.
But it does mean that something has to give, and for the time being, one of those somethings will need to be writing here.
I'd like to begin my break with blogging with Beethoven (how's that for a mouthful? *grin*) by sharing a quote by him that I've enjoyed from the book Beethoven for Kids by Helen Bauer that I have been reading:
"Then let us all do what is right, strive with all our might toward the unattainable, develop as fully as we can the gifts God has given us, and never stop learning."I leave you learning, learning, learning!